Amazing Gluten Free Cheesecake

I love cheesecake. I may have a flirtatious relationship with other desserts - "oh hey, I like you, you're yummy" - but cheesecake and I are joined by the bonds of love (and possibly love-handles...oh dear...). Robert and I both love cheesecake so much that we actually had cheesecake for our wedding cake (which, thinking back, may have not been the best of plans for a July wedding...but it was still delicious!), and occasionally we would indulge and buy a cheesecake sampler from Sams club and eat it behind the children's backs.

However, the last couple of months we have been trying to eat not only gluten free, but entirely grain free, which, while it has been good for our health and waistlines, has been somewhat of hardship in that it eliminated nearly every dessert known to mankind. Unwilling to give up dessert entirely, I started exploring some grain free dessert alternatives. One dessert that stuck out as an obvious choice was cheesecake, since it's only grains are contained within the crust. I developed a new crust out of almond meal, which is basically just whole almonds ground very finely until they are almost flour-like, and tried it with my cheesecake, and oh my! Heavenly! I don't miss old cheesecake crust at all...in fact, I think I prefer it this way!

Unfortunately this recipe isn't COMPLETELY grain free, because the cheesecake batter itself calls for 2 tablespoons of gluten free flour, and I haven't yet figured out a good substitute that will bind it together. But spread through the whole cheesecake, that seems a fairly negligible amount. If I ever get around to doing some research, perhaps I can find a substitute that will render the recipe truly grain free, and then I will share it with y'all.

Cheesecake it not hard at all to make, but it does take a long time from start to finish, mostly waiting for things to warm or cool. If you are having company and want to serve cheesecake for dessert, I'd advise making it a day in advance (and hiding it deep in the recesses of your fridge so your kids don't get into it)!

Amazing Gluten Free Cheesecake 

**First, leave cream cheese, sour cream, and eggs on counter to come to room temperature, about 1 hour. The softer the cream cheese is, the smoother the cheesecake will be. If it's too cold, your cheesecake will still taste good but it'll be lumpy or grainy.

Crust:
1 cup ground almond meal*
1/4 raw cane sugar
2 T melted butter

Mix the almond meal and the sugar together. (The 1/4 makes for a fairly sweet crust, so if you want it just a little sweet, reduce sugar to about 2 T). Add melted butter and stir until sticking together and crumbly. Press (I think clean fingers work best) into the bottom of a 9 inch springform cheesecake pan, making sure the whole bottom is covered. The 1 cup of almond meal makes enough to cover just the bottom, so if you want the crust to come up the sides, too, I'd recommend doubling the crust recipe.

Bake crust at 350 F for about 10 minutes, until lightly browned. Depending on your oven, you may want to turn once halfway through to have it brown evenly. Cool crust for about 10 minutes. Increase oven temp to 375.

Filling:
2 packages cream cheese, softened
2 cups (1 16 oz carton) sour cream, room temp
1 c sugar (again, can use less for a mildly sweet cake)
2 T gluten free flour blend (I use Pamela's gluten free bread mix)
1 t vanilla
1/2 t almond extract**

3 egss, room temp
1 t finely grated lemon peel

Mix together cream cheese, sour cream, sugar, gluten free flour, vanilla, and almond extract until well combined. Add eggs and lemon peel and beat until smooth.

Pour filling into pan on top of cooled crust. Put on the second to lowest rack of your oven. Underneath, on the lowest rack, Bake at 375 for 45 minutes or until the top is lightly browned, the edges feel firm and springy when lightly touched, and a knife or toothpick comes out clean from the center. Cool on the counter for about 2 hours before attempting to open the spring on the pan. Chill in the refridgerator another 4 hours, at least.


*You can buy almond meal at Vitamin Cottage or probably other health food stores such as Whole Foods. However, if you can't find it, you can also make your own from whole almonds. Follow this link for directions: http://glutenfreecooking.about.com/od/glutenfreeingredient1/ht/makealmondmeal.htm

**If you don't want an almond flavored cheesecake, omit this flavoring or use some other kind of flavoring such a lemon, orange, etc. Robert and I really like almond flavored things, so I use a lot of the extract, but you can also use less, about 1/4 teaspoon, for a less strong flavor. The same goes for the lemon peel; I really like the combination of almond extract and lemon, but if you don't care for lemon, you can reduce or omit the lemon peel, or substitute orange or lime peel for a really exotic cheesecake!


You can serve your cheesecake plain or with whipped cream and strawberries...or cherries...or raspberries...the possibilities are endless. Honestly, the hardest part of this recipe is waiting until the silly thing is cool enough to slice.

As you can see, I couldn't even wait long enough to take a picture first... ;-)

{don't be a} Pushover

I have always been the type of person who avoids confrontation. Most oldest children are "Type A" personalities, and, while I may fit the "bossy older sister" profile in some categories, I am not a very confrontational person. When I get upset, I tend to internalize things and just "stew" over them without telling the person how I feel. And I think the older I get, the more hesitant I've become about sharing my true feelings with other people. There is a very small number of friends and family members I feel comfortable telling "what's what," but for the general population, I am a pushover. I have a terribly hard time saying no to people when they ask for favors, or telling them if their behavior is upsetting me. I like to be liked and I dislike having people angry at me. I tend to be overly apologetic, even if something wasn't my fault. But underneath the placid-seeming surface, it rankles.

I remember one time when I was a child, I was forced to apologize for something I did not do. It was my weekly piano lesson, and this week there was someplace important we had to be right after piano, so Mom impressed upon me "the moment your lesson is over, get your book and come straight out to the car - do not stop to talk to anyone or do anything else!" So, as soon as my lesson ended, I obediently grabbed my book and headed toward the door. As I was running out, the boy whose lesson followed mine was coming in the door. We were friends, so I said "Hi! And Bye!" in the same breath as I ran out the door - my attempt at being polite rather than just ignoring him. Unfortunately for me, his mom was with him, and she decided somehow to take offense at my terse greeting. She collared me, marched me out to the car where mom was waiting, and told the whole story of my supposed rudeness. (Please remember that this story is from my 8 year old point of view). I tried to explain that I just been trying to obey Mom, but in the end, my mom made me apologize to her for what she perceived as me being rude. Probably Mom made me say "I'm sorry if I offended you" or some such thing, but in my childish mind, I was being forced to apologize for obeying my mom and trying be polite. Twenty some odd years later, the memory still rankles. Pathetic, yes. Pathological inability to let things go - absolutely. Did it probably make up for all the things I got away with unpunished? Definitely. But still...the injustice of it all! Somehow the way I felt as an 8 year old, when I was forced to apologize simply because she was an adult, mirrors the same helpless feeling I have today when I am unable to tell people how upset or angry or hurt I really am.

Some unfortunate circumstances that happened to me this week have brought that feeling to the forefront. I let certain people impose on me in ways that made me uncomfortable, and later on, I became quite angry about it. But I didn't tell them how I felt, and I probably won't. Partly because we are not close enough to have that kind of honest relationship, and partly because I am just a plain old coward about confrontation. My husband is quite the opposite. He never backs down from telling people what he thinks - except maybe certain clients who would fire him if he told them just how annoying they are. And granted, this level of honesty means he sometimes offends people and sometimes puts his foot in his mouth. But nobody could ever accuse him of being a coward.

It got me wondering about which response is right. "Turn the other cheek?" "Speak the truth in love?" "Don't cast your pearls before swine?" Jesus always spoke the truth in love. But he also remained silent when he was interrogated and it served no purpose for him to argue with someone He knew wouldn't listen anyway.

I guess I need to find a way to speak honestly, loving to the people in my life. But also, to bear with them and forgive them, not holding a grudge, even if nothing changes.

What about you? Are you pushy? Or a pushover? Which personality type do you think is best?  

What Women Fantasize About (G-rated)

Note - despite the title of this post, it doesn't contain inappropriate material. Or at least not much. ;-)

My husband asked me one day if women struggled with fantasizing about other men. I just laughed.
"Oh, honey," I said. "We fantasize about a lot of things...but men really aren't one of them."

One of the key differences between men and women that men will never understand. Men fantasize about women. Women fantasize about...having enough alone time to get done all the things we want? Maybe that sounds selfish. Maybe it is. Maybe we are selfish in our fantasies because that is the only time we can ever afford to be selfish - the rest of the time, we are too busy taking care of everyone else!

Here's a short list, by no mean comprehensive, of things women fantasize about:

-sitting on the couch, in a perfectly clean house (that someone else cleaned), sipping wine (or sparkling cider for teetotlaers like me) and watching Jane Austen and Elizabeth Gaskell movies

- eating magical chocolate that makes us thinner with each bite

- waking up in the morning looking like we just spent 3 hours getting ready, without actually having to spend the 3 hours

- going shopping by ourselves, without any kids, and coming home to happy children and dinner already cooked

- sitting in church with our husband and adorable, well-dressed, well-behaved children, who sit still and  quietly through the entire service

- bras that make us look good, but feel like we're wearing pajamas, and shoes that look like stilettos, but are as comfortable as bedroom slippers

- finding our favorite brand of clothing, in our size, marked 80% off

- fitting into last year's swimsuit (jeans are applicable too)

- taking a two hour bubble bath with a good book and NO interruptions

- a world where snakes and spiders do not exist

- having a bathroom all to ourselves, so we can scatter our makeup, curling irons, and hair products with impunity and never have to worry about whether the toilet seat is up

- painless childbirth (Hahahahaha! just the thought is hysterical!)

-getting 12 hours of sleep every night

- being served tea and scones from a beautiful china teapot at four o'clock each afternoon by our personal maid just like on Downton Abbey (possibly while watching Downton Abbey...)

- sometimes, I must confess, we fantasize about our husbands getting to experience our monthly periods or, even better, labor! That way they can understand what we go through and show much more gratitude for our forbearance as each month passes without an axe-murder occurring...

- and finally, one of my favorite fantasies, which crosses my mind nearly on a daily basis (including today), looks like this:

Le Sigh. Don't we all wish...

Okay, now pull your head down out of the clouds and go scrub something and find something about your actual life to be thankful for!

Then eat some chocolate and pretend it's magical chocolate that makes you thinner. You never know...it could happen....

Now, what about you, women everywhere? Anything you want to add to my list? (G-rated comments only please!)

{As You Wish}

Back at the beginning of December, my sisters and I threw a bridal shower for our dear sister-to-be (now sister-in-law) Melissa. Since she and Isaac are both so blonde...and so romantic...and had a lot of inside jokes about him saying "as you wish" to whatever she requested...we all took to calling them "Wesley and Buttercup." Thus it should be no surprise that we decided to make the bridal shower "Princess Bride" themed.

We had SO much fun creating every aspect of the shower. Here are the invitations:

For the decorations, Daniella and I made some pennant banners out of some pretty green paper she had lying around.

You can sort of see it in the background here:

A bit more decor hinting at the movie:

We printed up signs with quotes from the movie and posted them all over the castle..er, house...

I have to confess this was probably my favorite of all the decorations:

It just makes you smile. ;-)

Daniella made these nifty nametags for everyone to wear:

Here's our mom's nametag, filled out:

We also had this board of magnets with words from The Princess Bride for people to arrange into sentences. People had a lot of fun with that.

Even our food was Princess Bride themed! 

For example, MLTs (mozzerella, lettuce, and tomato):

The world's most delicious tarts with cream cheese filling and berries, which we called "Princess 

Butter-cups":

We also served also ROUS (Rolls of Unusual Size), a bread, cheese and apple platter complete with "iocane powder," "True Love" kisses, "fire-swamp" (i.e. green chile) stew, and, of course, peanuts!

Here is the lovely Princess Bride with her mother:

And with both mothers:

Melissa and Sophie, both looking lovely:

Possibly the best part of the entire event was that Isaac showed up at the end, dressed as the Dread Pirate Roberts:

He swooped in and quite literally swept his Princess Bride off her feet and ran away with her!

Okay, after a few moments he brought her back. Everyone was quite surprised, Melissa most of all!

It was quite possibly the most fun party we've ever done, and everything turned out quite well, I think. Congratulations to Isaac and Melissa! We love you both.

Me want cooo...kieee....

Raise your hand if Cookie Monster is the character you can most identify with on Sesame Street.

Yep, me too. Who wants to bother COUNTING cookies when you could just be GOBBLING them all up?!

I confess, I make way too many cookies. And ever since our family went (mostly) gluten free, it's been quite difficult to find a good gluten free cookie recipe. I've tried quite a few, some better than others, but nothing quite seems right in terms of taste and texture when compared with "real" cookies. I often end up making two batches of cookies, one gluten free for the kids and one secret stash of "real" cookies for me and Robert. Yes, I know. Don't judge me. Okay, go ahead and judge me. I judge myself...but I keep on doing it. I tell myself I'm doing it for my marriage. Robert likes my "real" cookies.

The other day I was over at Mom's house hanging out with my two delightful youngest sisters, and we ended up making cookies, of course. I used a recipe from her one of Mom's old cookbooks, but I adjusted it to use gluten free flour. They turned out to be the BEST gluten free cookies I'd ever made!Even Robert (who has the most sensitive palate known to man and can detect a single grain of gf flour in any recipe) didn't figure out they were gluten free. In fact, we finished them off (without the kids ;-) and yesterday I had to make some more to give to my mother in law - since she is now gluten AND dairy free, it's hard to find good recipes to make for her! 

My mom asked me to post the recipe so you all can share in the goodness, so here you go!

GF Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies

Ingredients:

1/2 cup butter, softened

1 cup sugar

2 eggs, room temperature

1/4 cup milk (to make them dairy free also, use coconut milk. I did and I couldn't tell any difference)

1 2/3 cups of gluten free oats (rolled, not steel cut)

1 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips (or raisins, if you prefer)

1 tsp vanilla

1 1/2 cups of gluten free flour (I used Pamela's bread mix, not baking mix; I haven't tried it with other gf flour blends, but you can play around with it.)

1 tsp baking soda

1/2 tsp salt

1 t cinnamon

Directions:

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Cream butter and sugar until combined; then add eggs and milk and mix. Add oats, chocolate chips, and vanilla. Combine remaining dry ingredients and add slowly to mixture until a thick dough is formed. Drop teaspoonfuls onto a greased cookie sheet and bake for 12-15 minutes, until lightly browned and a toothpick comes out clean. The cookies should be pretty thick and not spread out a whole lot. They are cakey and soft and the chocolate melts a little..mmmmm.

I will now leave you to 

OMM NOMM NOMM NOMM!!

{things I've said}

A short list of things I've actually said to my children this week:

(to Joseph) "Take that camel out of your mouth and finish your reading lesson!"
(Note - I was talking about a plastic piece of the nativity set, not a cigarette, in case you're worried)

(James) "We do NOT pee in plastic bags and then hide them under the table!!"

(Gabriella) "Please take your finger OUT of my ear and do not put it in there again!"

(to Robert) "I have to go clean the dried tuna fish off the piano before Mom comes to give Joseph his piano lesson."

(to myself) "Why is there peanut butter all over the piano keys AGAIN?!"

and, lest you feel that Elora is being left out, here's my anecdote about her this week. She talks in her sleep. It's pretty much the cutest thing ever. A few nights ago, she rolled over in her sleep, sang/said "Di-e-go! Go, Diego, go! I watch Diego?" and then fell instantly asleep again. (Diego is her favorite tv show in the whole entire world. It's kind of like the boy version of Dora the Explorer. We're all quite sick of it...but she loves it.)

Then last night, James came in to tell us he'd had a nightmare about bears. Elora was asleep in my lap and she suddenly sat bolt upright, said "Bears?!" and then fell back asleep. I almost woke her up again, I was laughing so hard.

Yes, life with these little people is many things...but it's definitely never boring.

Status Update: Married!

In case you couldn't tell from my absence, the month of December was quite a busy one for me! Hosting a bridal shower in early December, tons of family in town for our FOUR separate Christmas celebrations (yes, it was excessive), and, finally and most notably, watching my little brother get married! That thought in and of itself is crazy and difficult for me to wrap my head around, but in a very happy way. It was a lovely wedding, a testimony to God's faithfulness, and a very VERY joyful day, especially for my brother and his lovely new wife, Melissa! It's exciting to have a new sister and see my brother set off on this new and exciting stage in life.

Here is a GORGEOUS professional photo of the newlyweds. More goofy and probably less professional photos to follow soon!